Jul 31, 2015
Jul 30, 2015
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Things have changed so much since I last worked full time away from home. It has been eight years since I last had a full time job and things have changed so much that it seems like I am doing this for the first time. Adjusting to all the differences and newness has been draining. I have already had to do so much for this new job, yet I am not fully hired until I pass a series of tests that will go on for a total of eight day. I start this process next week and I have to admit I am not looking forward to the anticipated pressure of passing everything. Because next week will be so demanding I may not blog everyday next week. Next week will be the start of me possibly slowing down on my frequency of blogging.
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 28, 2015
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My daughter was once a timid child. I did not want that for her since I grew up as a timid child myself. Because of my timidity I grew up with an extreme lack of social skills. This has caused me a lot of problems as an adult.
Going off to college caused my courage to grow even more, but my lack of social skills kept me from ever making any real friends and building good relationships. My timidity and lack of social skills has made an introvert and eccentric. I am a social butterfly around people I am close to and in one on one settings, but around a large group of people and around people who I am not close with I tend to close up and shut down. It is true that opposites attract because my husband has no lack in courage. Over our nine years of marriage he has pushed me to step outside of myself.
Since my daughter has been doing modeling her courage has dramatically increased. If you met my daughter today, you would never believe that she was ever a timid child. In modeling, my daughter has to constantly participate in public speaking. Since starting modeling she has been in plays and has had several roles on stage. Her modeling experience in public speaking has made her shine like a star on stage.
Seeing my daughter grow in her courage has encouraged me to become more confident. I am not the type of person to initiate conversation with a stranger or volunteer myself to get up in front of others, but last week I was asked to do something that I did not want to do. It involved me having to speak in front of a large group of people. My daughter was with me and I wanted to be bold in front of her. I told her that I did not want to do what I was asked, but I was going to be brave and do it anyways. I wanted to show my daughter that I could be brave even during times I did not feel brave. After I completed my assignment people were asked to volunteer and share with everyone what was learned. I was so nervous. I unintentionally showed everyone my oddness during my first assignment and now I was contemplating volunteering and being odd in front of everyone again. I raised my hand and volunteered myself, knowing that I was probably going to look odd again in front of everyone.
After I finally sat back down I felt really good. I was able to push past my lack of boldness and eccentricities and actually show courage. I felt very proud of myself. Not only had I been able to shown myself approved that I can be of courage but I also met a new friend as well. That day I took initiative to introduce myself to someone and try to be friendly. On that day I met a new friend and I was able to show bravery around my daughter.
Even during this time of me going on job interviews it has been very evident on how much I have grown in my courage. I used to have extreme anxiety when going through interviews but I believe I have come off as very confident on some of my interviews. I know my growth is in large part due to my husband and my daughter. I am thankful to God for putting these individuals in my life to help me grow in my area of weakness.